The last few months have been really rough on me. I lost my home, my family was separated, I went through one hell of a battle with depression, and I’m currently trying to get my life back in order. I honestly don’t know where to start. It’s been a rough ride to get to this point. I was in a dark place for a long time and I didn’t see a light at the end of my tunnel. It was just darkness. I was living in the crappiest motel in Fort Pierce. The only thing I would smell is weed when I entered my room. Everyone in the motel stayed high all the time and fought each other. They even broke a few windows. What little I did see of my family always cheered me up. My life was like that for two months. After I ran of out of cash I was invited to live with my sister. My sisters and I don’t really get along very well. I knew it was a bad idea, but I wanted to be with my family again so I accepted their offer. I never opened up to any of them and told them how I was feeling though.
These people are the same people that tried to destroy me and take my kids away from me. I was walking on thin ice over there and one day my sister’s son decided to start with me. He blew up at me because he saw me in Publix. He works there and threatened to stalk me if I ever showed up there again. My response led my sister to trying to start a fight with me. She tried to fight my wife, and started throwing all my stuff out in the rain. I lost a lot of my things, but I knew that would happen because I know my sister. She is not a good person. So… I left and I called the police to help me get my things from her property. From there I finally got a place to live. It’s not a great home, but it’s a home and it feels good to be able to lay my head down without worrying where I’ll be sleeping the next night.
All of this started because my former landlord decided that he didn’t want us living in his house anymore and kicked us out in 24 hours. He lied to the court and said we owed him $80. Our rent was paid up, but we lost our home anyway. That’s in the past though. All of that is in the past and right now my only goal is to fix my life and raise my kids. It… was a really stressful time for me. My depression didn’t get any better. Now… I think I’m okay. I’m not %100 okay, but I’m not super depressed like I was. I don’t feel lost or hopeless anymore. I’m still depressed… but I think in time I’ll be okay again. Not everything was all doom and gloom. I had my Nintendo Switch with me during this whole ordeal and it really helped me get through some nights. So did my phone. I played a shit ton of phone games and found a few that I really like. I’m super into Returners right now. It’s not pay to win like %90 0f the shit on the Google Play Store and I’ve managed to get myself up to gold tier without paying a single cent. Final Fantasy Opera Omnia is another great game that kept my mind off of all the shit I was going through. I even played a little Lineage II: Revolution. Once you turn off autoplay the game is fun. I don’t like watching my character do everything for me.
There’s also a really neat game called Questland. It’s a first person dungeon crawler with simple combat, but it’s very generous to free to play players. The last game that’s worth mentioning is Sdorica Sunset. The gameplay in that game is pretty cool. You have to match same color icons for your characters to perform attacks. Matching four of them unleashes their ultimate attack. That’s not what drew me to that game though. The developers did. Rayark made this game. The developers of Deemo and Deemo told a really good story. So far the story in Sdorica is really cool and well written. The characters are great too. My favorite is the Kung fu tiger.
My go to gaming platform has been my Switch. It’s actually my only gaming platform at the moment. I’m sitting in library writing all of this :). Azure Striker Gunvolt, Super Mario Odyssey, and Skyrim have been in rotation on the Switch with a hint of Mario Kart 8 Deluxe and Pokken Tournament. If I’m ever in a sour mood Mario would cheer me right up. Odyssey is such a happy game there’s no way I could stay in a bad mood while I play it. The visuals and animations are amazing in that game and I applaud Nintendo for the effort that they put into making it. Azure Striker is like my new Mega Man. I love it to death and it can be hard as fuck too. I’ve gotten pretty good at it and I’m currently trying to S rank every stage in part 2.
Skyrim has been (by far) my most played game on the Switch the last month. There’s so much to do that I think I can play it forever and still not discover everything. I did the Thieves Guild questline for the time yesterday and was blown away at how awesome it was. The Thieves Guild is my new favorite guild. Everything about it was awesome. Playing Skyrim on the Switch does make me miss my mods on PC though :(. I really, really miss my PC. When I get into Skyrim and start playing the subpar graphics and lack of mods don’t really bother me that much. I thought it would because I’ve been spoiled by PC gaming. When I really get into and spend like 3 or 4 hours playing I honestly don’t think of playing it on any other platform. I’m just happy that I can play it on the go or on my big screen.
And that’s been my life lately. Things are slowly getting better, but I did lose a lot of things that meant a lot to me. I know it’s all replaceable, but that doesn’t take away the pain I felt when I lost them. I’m happy to be living with my wife and kids again in our new home and I’m happy to be writing again. It feels really good to be back. I’ve missed all of you and having great disagreements with everyone.
Before I finish up I would like to thank everyone that checked up on me (especially you Chuck!) during this difficult time in my life. I’ve had great conversations with Ryan, Chuck, Bradley, Paul, and got a ton of encouragement from the awesome WordPress Facebook group. Your well wishes meant a lot to me even if it didn’t seem like it. Chuck texted me almost everyday to make sure I was doing well and I appreciate every cat/dog pic he sent me to try and cheer me up.
I’m going to try and post as often as I can. I’m not going on another 2 month hiatus. It feels good to be back and I look forward to my future disagreements with everyone :). What have you been up to lately?